accounting

Today I did something that I’ve been putting off for about six months.

(WHAAAAT?! I hear you gasp incredulously. But you’re a coach! You’re meant to know about procrastination and motivation and all that stuff. You’re meant to live it. You’re meant to be a Shining Example!)

[oh! I know!] But let me explain: what I was putting off involved business accounting. Yes, you heard right. Business accounting. The kind of stuff that makes my brain retreat into a corner, curl into a little ball and rock back and forth on its heels. And what I was doing already was working sort.of.effectively. Actually, it wasn’t. But it was working well enough that I could tell myself it was working effectively. Until I woke up in the middle of the night with that blinding 3am realisation that Something Needs To Change.

And I had good [not really] reasons to put off taking action: I was worried that I seemed stupid, that as a high.functioning adult entrepreneur I should be able to do this stuff. I was also worried that if I really looked at the issue, I would realise that it was actually forty.million.times bigger that I had anticipated and that I would be completely overwhelmed and would have no hope of fixing it.

I was being held back by an unwillingness to be vulnerable and by an unsubstantiated fear.

So you know what my friends? I decided to face the issue straight on. I called my (ridiculously brilliant and lovely) accountant, I came clean about my fears and my embarrassment about my lack of knowledge. And then I asked for help.

We set up a time, I went in and learnt all I needed to know. And I came away feeling A Hundred Dollars!

Proud that I had pushed my brain to go places it doesn’t normally feel comfortable, confident that my new knowledge will support my continued business development and relieved that I don’t have to worry about it anymore.

[Top notch].

Tags: fear, Procrastination, vulnerability