big ol’

Wouldn’t it be brilliant if your goals for the year were super easy to achieve and then you did achieve them and then you felt amazing and fulfilled and that was that?

I had a think the other day about what I will be working towards this year [I’m not a big fan of new year’s resolutions but I definitely emphasise my longer term goals every January]. Anyway, there I was thinking about what I’ll be focusing on when it suddenly occurred to me that what I really want to do, if I am completely honest with myself, is something that scares the pants off me. [Right off my friends!]

That realisation made me feel a bit sick. And then I felt a bit annoyed. A bit CHEESED OFF, to use an expression that I never do. Because you know what? There’s a part of me that just wants to want something that is easy, that isn’t going to demand more of me than will make me feel comfortable giving.

I know that stretch goals promote persistence and so lead to greater achievement. I know that. But I also know that the goals can’t be too challenging; you have to know that you have the ability to achieve them. And that’s the thing. I’m not sure if I am turning away because I am just a big ol’ scaredy.pants or because I really, truly don’t think I can do it.

Either way, I am working out what I need to do to make it happen.

Tags: courage, goals, persistence, vulnerability