blessed

You know how going on holiday is a good opportunity to assess the way you’re living? [It gives you some space and perspective and allows you the chance to gauge how you’re feeling about coming home to your everyday life…]

Going on maternity leave is sort of the same. I am in my final weeks at work and I find myself feeling sad about leaving. Ok, so maybe not so sad about having a break from admin and IT stuff [blegh] but definitely sad about not seeing clients.

When I started this business I had a really clear idea in my head of who I wanted to work with and one of the things I love most about what I have created is that my ideal client base has been realised. Most days when I leave my office I feel uplifted by the people I have been speaking to [even if we have been discussing heavy stuff] and more often than not I have learnt something valuable and feel inspired too [such a privilege].

Sometimes I think back on my previous in.the.city job. You know, the one I hated, where I would count the minutes until coffee time and lunch time and home time. The one where I really liked a few people but felt completely separate from the others. That job where I felt like sitting at my beige work station was slowly turning me beige from the inside out, as though the innocuous furniture was sucking my soul right out of me.

I think about how terrified I was to leave and how grateful I am that I did. I think about what my life would have looked like if I’d stayed but that sort of scares me so I stop thinking about it.

I am thrilled to be taking a break to meet this new little person but I am also super happy [and I think maybe, a bit relieved?] that I will be looking forward to coming back to work too.

[so blessed].

Tags: appreciation, baby love, balance, choices, courage, trust, values