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Sometimes my head makes itself hurt.

This is the process: I have a thought. Then I react internally to that thought. Then I think about my reaction and then I berate myself a little for thinking about my reaction. Which, if you think about it, is thinking about thinking about thinking.

It is tiring.

I am trying, instead, to focus on just having the thought and acknowledging it for what it is. So, instead of feeling angry and then wondering why I am angry and then thinking I shouldn’t be angry and then becoming frustrated with myself for becoming so caught up in the whole process, I simplify.

I feel angry. And I say to myself I feel angry. I might ask myself why. And maybe sit with that for a while. And then I try to move on.

I am finding it challenging. And worthwhile.