lessons

Life lessons have a way of coming back and back and back and back, until you finally learn them. Don’t they? [arggh!]

My Lovely One has been away for two weeks. Which doesn’t sound like very long but when you’re looking after two little people, all on your own, it could very well be Two Years. [Except that it wasn’t. THANKGOD].

It was hard [I have renewed my incredible awe for single mums and dads because I seriously just have no idea how they do it], and looong and painfully enlightening.

The two biggest things I learnt were lessons that I now realise I have been resisting for years.

Firstly: you don’t have to do everything. [Whaaat? I know.] As one of those people who always tries to do everything and do it perfectly, I have finally [I hope] accepted that it’s ok to consciously decide to leave some stuff off the to do list. Over the past weeks, I have been forced to drop some things [like this blog]. And you know what? Everything was fine.

And secondly: ask for help. This was The Big One. The REALLY big one. I h-a-t-e asking for help but this time I just had to. And again, everything was fine. More than fine. Everyone was amazing and instead of making me feel useless it brought me closer to so many people. So lovely.

Lessons surface again and again and again, until you are finally willing to surrender. And then you do and it feels so good.

[Love love love that].

Tags: appreciation, choices, courage, help